I've spent my first few days in Arizona for the first time on my own and I've learned a few things. I'm better off going on a run to figure out where everything is - the other day, I figured out I've been driving around my ass to get to my elbow to get to groceries stores (here, you can buy vodka in the grocery stores along with wine and I find that glorious) and the drug store. But hey, I found a Trader Joe's, so that was okay - even if it was 17 miles away. I've also learned that there is a sundry of great shopping and eating that doesn't require me to get in a car to get to - simply put, dangerous. I've learned to put sunscreen in the crown of my hair. I'm imagining some ugly flaking in the near future. I've learned that drinking as much water as is required especially when exercising makes one less inclined to drink as much booze as normal or eat as much which is great for weight loss AND hydrating the skin (which, by the way, in combination with really great lotions has my skin looking better than ever, so here's a big raspberry sent out to the naysayers who said I'd dry up like a Papyrus greeting card - my skin is brown and plump - so there).
When I embarked upon this adventure, I wasn't running from anything, but rather to a space in which I am able to discover more about who I am at this stage of life. Stepping away from the pattern and place I've created for myself and into a bit of the unknown is what I've needed to begin to center myself and start to ask: How do I become the absolute best version of me? As a mother, a daughter, a family member, a friend, a professional, a contributor - ultimately, what the Big Guy designed for me when he decided to throw me into the womb of my Mom. I imagine Him saying: "Alright, Cindy, here are your ingredients, let her bake for a while and make sure you take her out of the oven at the right temperature and texture 'cause she's got some work to do."
So, I am in throes of experience, learning and cleansing myself of all the negativity, internal and external, that even DARE to get in the way of me turning out to be the perfect recipe I was intended to be. I just ain't got time for that.
This is a Not Knowing What the Hell I'm Doing - but man, I'm gonna have a ball.
